I'm Not Starving Myself... I'm Perfecting My Emptiness
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Name: kasandra
Country: United States
State: Washington
Birthday: 5/4/1986
Gender: Female


Interests: not eating, eating and then hating it and myself... hating how fat i am... hating that i'm not skinny... wishing I could be beautiful...
Expertise: nothing!
Occupation: Artist


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Member Since: 1/29/2004

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Monday, March 13, 2006

I'm 106.5 pounds... and it doesn't make me happy... doesn't make me feel good.
                this time being skinny isn't the same... this time I'm not trying
my goal isn't to lose weight, my goal isn't to starve. i don't have any weight goals.
               my weight isn't the issue... it's not the problem.... not this time.


Friday, August 19, 2005

god i started feeling better a bit with my weight, but wednesday and thursday i felt like i ate so much fucking food. i feel so nasty and even though i'm hungry i dont want anymore macaroni and eww on hot dogs.

pizza party yummy and ice cream cake delicious.

i hate parties... but not really.


Sunday, August 14, 2005

if you could choose 1 thing for me to never do... what would it be?

It could be something I've done that you hope I wont do again, or something I've never done.

Anything... what would it be?


Monday, July 25, 2005

Currently Listening
Tragic Kingdom
By No Doubt

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hehe i'm totally bored and it's 4am. I can't sleep so here's some pictures!

I had way too much fun in this little hat shop.

and then these are just random funess.

 


Saturday, July 23, 2005

Just to clarify my background image for everyone:

just because i don't love myself the way i am doesn't mean i don't want others to... I want people to love my faults along with the good things i have to offer. I'm trying to love me, it's hard but i'm trying. I'm just asking others to try, just to get to know me, not to jugde me. Because I'm a smart, talented, pretty girl. So i've walked down dark alleys and took long drives doesn't mean I'm bad or that i don't regret the choices I've made. I wish i could turn back time, take away all the bullshit i've faced but i'm who i am and i can't change my past. I can change my future though, and that's where i'm running now.

I love my eyes, the way i sneeze, my style, my smile, my stupid questions.... there's a lot about me that i love. But who really loves every single thing about them. I've never met such a person, and frankly i don't believe there is a person that loves every little thing about them.



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